i suck at designing my blog - today i couldn't get a good design going. grr, i'm frustrated. woke up kinda blue, as well - but now i'm trying to dissolve the mood with music. why can't i be a steven, or a frank, or a jodee... and be able to design lovely sites :( argh. i'll have to settle with being only good at... hrmm, let's see :-p nothing.

jill is the most awesome girl i know! oh my goodness! JILL YOU ARE SO AWESOME :) :) :)... she sent me a wonderful cd in the post and i got it this morning... along with the grooviest card i ever saw! (jill, that chair is amazingly sexy! ;)) and it meant so much to me :) :) it really brightened up my day. thank you sooooooo much jill! missing you too... good luck in Cheeseland! :) hehe. Expect various British cheer in the mail shortly ;)

well, i'm not sure what to do now... noone is online, i have no money to go anywhere and my web site design is going nowhere. i guess i'll watch some tv and... i dunno!! :Þ and to steven - dude, good luck with college today! I hope you have the best time :) i'm gonna eat now, i guess ...


There goes my old girlfriend
There's another diamond ring
And of all those late night promises
I guess they don't mean a thing

So baby, what's the story
Did you find another man
Is it easy to sleep in the bed that we made
When you don't look back I guess
The feelings start to fade away

I used to feel your fire
But now it's cold inside
And you're back on the street
Like you didn't miss a beat, yeah

Tell me what it takes to let you go
Tell me how the pain's supposed to go
Tell me how it is that you can sleep
In the night, without thinkin' you lost
Everything that was good in your life
To the toss of the dice
Tell me what it takes to let you go
Yeah,

Girl, before I met you, I was F.I.N.E. fine
But your love made me a prisoner
Yeah, my heart's been doing time
You spent me up like money
A then you hung me out to dry
It was easy to keep all your lies in disguise
'Cause you had me in deep
With the devil in your eyes

Tell me that you're happy that you're on your own
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Tell me that it's better when you're all alone
Tell me that your body doesn't miss my touch
Tell me that my lovin' didn't mean that much
Tell me you ain't dying
When you're cryin' for me

Tell me who's to blame for thinkin' twice...no no no no
'Cause I don't wanna burn in paradise
Oooh, I don't, I don't no I don't wanna burn in paradise
let it go, let it go...
I don't wanna burn....

- what it takes, aerosmith

*sigh*

nothing ever turns out right. and life is so unfair.

Duel, the most exciting movie ever

omg! tonight, i was stunned, shocked, stirred and hurled into excitement like never before! my mouth fell open, amazed about what was unfolding in front of me. i could never look away, i'd miss the tremendous action! i could never take a breath, because it was all so breathtaking. i saw what is undoubtedly the most thrilling movie... the most fast paced and the movie with the most satisfying ending i ever saw.

it was one hour and twenty five minutes long. you have a man driving in the california mountains, and a crazy gas tanker driver. a high speed chase, which is full of fabulous camera angles, delightful monologues and sweat-inducing pace. i loved it! almost fell off my bed! you GOTTA see it!!! hehe

on another note... looked after the shitsu... it's so cute! and so nice! the perfect houseguest. and i'm exhausted now. goodnight, all :)

i'm looking after my aunt's dog tomorrow. it's a shitsu called Shang. that should be fun. all i want to do is sleep tonight. i feel sorta ill. oh well, new design for this site around the corner, i think. i wish i had a webcam... i'd take a pic of shang. :)

it's so late, i'm so tired, so why am i even bothering writing this update? i hear you... and i'll tell you. my last one, i feel was a tad boring. dull. i just fell into the dark pit of telling you all my actions of the day. maybe you are interested. if so, i'm very pleased. if not, then this update may suit you more. or perhaps not, because you see - i want my bed. it's there, and nothing at all is stopping me from going there. i guess i'm so addicted to this darn internet, i forget what's important. like my sleep. on a side note, don't you hate when you are kind enough to ask someone how they are, and they don't have the decency to ask you back. it's not like i'm going to prattle on... but it's only polite. *sigh*

today was interesting. today was interesting, and pleasurable. no. today was interesting, pleasurable and useful. firstly, it was good to see ally. he's a great friend, and i always enjoy his company. secondly, it was fun catching up with him. thirdly, i got some things done - bought more green tea, etc.

i feel great right now. completely happy, and excited about what life can bring. i have passion to travel many more places, and meet so many new people. i want to live life with my head up high and walk right into the deepest fun, exciting and pleasurable experiences. dive, swim, leap... just have exhilerating fun. :) and now, i'm definitely going to bed. love life - and it will most certainly love you. ;) skeet

i'm tired. very tired. i want to go relax in bed with a cup of tea, and watch more er. i'm seriously addicted - 6 episodes yesterday, and 6 the day before. i had a great day, though. let me give you the details ;)

woke up... pissed off because i couldn't sleep anymore. i have no idea why, but it was impossible. so i dragged myself downstairs, made a bagel with cream cheese and ham and watched tv until it was time to get clean. so i got clean.. and washed my hair (herbal essenses for you interested folks). i also used this rough thing (i guess it's a loofah?) on my arms with bath and body works citrus basil shower gel. nice.

so after i'm all clean, i decide to wear a harvard u shirt into downtown dundee... dunno why but i haven't wore it other than in bed so i thought i'd go wild. i love my harvard tshirt :) anyway... i go to the bus stop, and there are two police officers there. i think someone tore down the bus stop overnight, but anyway i walked to the next one and almost missed the bus - made it though, sat down and got through the boring journey.

i got off the bus, and waited for ally. stood around watching the strange folk in the town go by. then i saw him approach, and we proceeded on looking for a cell phone for him. we got a sneeky salesman in one store, and a very vibrant 50 year old lady in another (i remarked to ally, she's such a cool lady for her age). she was really awesome! gave great honest advice. but, in the end he decided to go dodgy and buy a second hand cell phone and insert his old SIM card... not something i'd do in case the goods are stolen... but ally is a determined laddie ;)

well, we head out to the new starbucks in the welgate center... it's mediocre. nice staff though. i know the lady there, and we had a chat about coffee, and she said i'd be great workin at starbucks ;) hehe.. she's cool. getting used to her new automatic machine there. (how boring is this entry!!!!) we sat down, i showed my 10,000 vacation photos to ally and we moved on to the best starbucks in the overgate. (where some strange guys were staring at us! they looked slightly insane)

blah blah blah hehe - what a mess i'm making of this entry. sorry for my boringness. anyway! it was a great day, great to see ally and nice to go to starbucks. and, according to steve, there's a great new show to look out for - amazing race. sounds awesome! i'm so tired!!!! I WANT SLEEEEEEEEEEP!!!!! :):) Love ya all ;) skeet

thanks to all those who sign my guestbook :) it's so awesome when i get entries... makes me smile brightly for ages. you know, the more i watch ER, the more i love it... and the more i love the characters. i'm going out again tomorrow for coffee - with the man, ally wilson... so that should mean a nice update tomorrow. right now i'm having another awesome chat with steve... so he gets a mention on this update! yay.. hehe... anyway, that's that for today. :-p

perhaps i'll write more later but now i have nothing more to say but - enjoy your new shows (or shoes ;)), stevie poo (haha)... ally - seeya tomorrow and have a cool morning at college... frank lieu- i'm so happy you found that note! hehe... i sneakily left it on your desk ;) and sheila - try and get some sleep to stay healthy and all that ;) later

i woke up early, and spent a good part of the morning with juliana margulies before heading into town. that's always awesome! ;) okay, yeah... it was through the tv, but who cares. it's still breakfast with juliana margulies!! ;-) then i headed into town to meet up with paul. the stupid bus though, had to try and get through a closed road. and the dumb driver sat there waiting for large trucks and tractors to move. i was getting very pissed off. but he finally moved his ass and i got into town. of course, it all had me disorientated, and i tried to get into the mall through the wrong door.. an emergency exit. and i kept trying. my mind couldn't understand this was not supposed to be... but finally i walked to another door (in the wrong direction) and after five minutes, i got in.

well, by the time i met up with paul i must have been looking so out of it... i quickly ordered some ice tea (yes, i'm a hypocrite... but i was darn hot after being in the bus with no air conditioning and my long treck to find the entrance to the mall). things picked up after that, though... some good lighthearted, relaxed conversation in the cool breezy atmosphere of starbucks. although, we were sandwiched in between so many people, it was difficult to get comfortable and chat properly... some german guys on the right, and two woman with a baby on the left. the baby was so cute, though... it looked so peaceful, and it was asleep. at first i was thinking, argh.. a baby.. i bet it will cry. but yes, i was very wrong.

pleasantaries (i can't spell) were exchanged by myself and paul... we had some light chat whilst he sipped his latte, and i sipped my ice tea. a very nice day. it was certainly worth all the bother getting there. plus, i hadn't seen paul in a long time, so that was quite swell. i got back home in time for dick van dyke in diagnosis murder... which rounded off it all, and i enjoyed the show with a hot mug of shangri-la tea. :) i'm now away to .. do something and i don't know what. :-Þ

wow. i have to say, this is the end of another good day. it really has been wonderful - and for no particular reason other than doing laundry and having some great chats online. i guess that's all you need in life - laundry and friendship. it's very fulfilling.

i just had a wonderful chinese bath. i feel great now - relaxed, and ready to curl up in bed with some music, and lie back and just think about things. i now smell of ginger and nutmeg from the bath... i feel like eating my arm or something, the smell is too nice :)

i'm awaking early tomorrow. to have a good breakfast, watch some ER then pop down town and meet up with paul for a bit... have a chinwag and all that before he goes back to his classes in the afternoon. and who knows what else i'll do after that. maybe go to waterstones, the book store and have a look around, or perhaps even buy some more green tea at the chinese herbalist.

note to ally: dude, i was going to email you, but i thought i'd do this instead to save my strength :) i hope college went well today on your first day... can't wait to hear about it on thursday man!

well people, love to you all on this fine night. i hope you all had a good as day as i had, if not better! if not, go out tomorrow and make it be fun. because if we don't try then life will just be a miserable pain in the ass. peace and love. skeet.

well that's the first load of laundry in. oh boy, you can tell today is going to be exciting ;) haha. i feel like doing something today, but i'm not sure what yet. i'm waiting on my dad giving me a spot of cash ;) because i'm broke, and have no job (gee, maybe i should get the readers to donate money via paypal like some chaps do ;))

that fine fellow, frank lieu, changed his layout yet again. and i must say it's even better than his last - bravo, big f! ;) ahh, it puts my site to shame... my crumby design next to his superduper one :):) *sigh* i'm chatting to our anna right now... it's awesome. she's a swell lass, so she is, fow newcastle, ken, ken, ;) eh, pet hehe.. sorry that's my newcastle accent for ya. can't wait to meet ya in glasgow anna with ally!! *jumps excitedly* hehe.. later.