Town was good yesterday. Human contact is always good. But stuff is really pissing me off - like the fact that I haven't been able to get online at nights, and noone has noticed really.... oh well. The people I know are out having fun, I'm not. This town really does suck. Ah well. Screw it all. As Pete, the author of the wonderful blog I Hate Sundays pointed out to me - "everyone just sucks". Which is so true. They will forget about you in a heartbeat because they have better people to think about. However when they need you, they will talk to you. Why? Don't ask me.
I'm thinking of going back to bed soon. Not much point of staying up. My so-called friends are probably off into town to hang out, and I'm just going to be here, at home as usual watching Frasier tapes. I'm such a moan! Sorry. But I'm just pointing out the failing of the human race or whatever.
Why is it that people always want something. They either want you when noone else is around, want you to do stuff for them, or want you to piss off so they can have fun. And there really is no exceptions when it comes to everyone I know. Maybe I have a anti-people device attatched to me, but why the heck don't they all include me in everyday stuff. Screw ya all. (Well, not my faithful blog readers. You all rule :)). I guess I just need to embrace Pete's findings and work around it all.
This city doesn't help though. It's a boring little dump of a town. Ah well enough of my rambings. love SkeeT.
Friday, March 23, 2001
I'm eating a pear right now. Is it just me, or does the pear seem to be the odd one out in fruit? You never really hear people talking about pears much, say as you would with apples, or oranges or even bananas! So the pear is one of those fruits that now seem a bit exotic to me. And they taste damn good. If you take anything away from this blog today, take away the thought of a pear, and go buy one.
Out to town this afternoon. So I should have a bit more to report on later in the day. But I'll be able to have some coffee, which is always nice. And those lovely girls in Starbucks who always give me a smile ;) hehe.
Yo again to perfect stranger. My, you really are mysterious! No name ;) Well that's cool ya read this blog. I'm actually surprised anyone would want to waste their time reading my crap, but many thanks. Ooh. And take 3000mg of vitamin c to get rid of that cold. Always works with me. Right ya cool people - I'm away to have breakfast. I'll write more later. :Þ Love SkeeT. PS - nup, I ain't from doug, mr stranger ;)
Out to town this afternoon. So I should have a bit more to report on later in the day. But I'll be able to have some coffee, which is always nice. And those lovely girls in Starbucks who always give me a smile ;) hehe.
Yo again to perfect stranger. My, you really are mysterious! No name ;) Well that's cool ya read this blog. I'm actually surprised anyone would want to waste their time reading my crap, but many thanks. Ooh. And take 3000mg of vitamin c to get rid of that cold. Always works with me. Right ya cool people - I'm away to have breakfast. I'll write more later. :Þ Love SkeeT. PS - nup, I ain't from doug, mr stranger ;)
Thursday, March 22, 2001
Why oh why: When you pour out your cereal, and left in the box there's only enough for another 1/4 of a bowl. Now, you can either leave it in the box, which makes no sense, because the next time you will have a very small helping, or you can pour the rest in. So you do that, then the bowl overflows, and you pour milk in and the whole thing is one big mess. Grr. All you Kellogs employees out there please assure me you will sort this out. Why not have nice helping meters in the box to give you an equal amount each time.
A big shout out to the wonderful Boston Globe :) Best newspaper in the world. Yup :) And also, hello to perfect stranger who signed the guestbook. I thank you for strolling in :)
The other day I got out the dusty copy of Sim City 3000. It's kept me occupied. You see, I now have to wait up to three weeks for the new computer, and so after deleting all my stuff, I'm left kinda bored. That game really is a heap of fun, though. And as you can tell, I don't really have all that much to say today, but I thought I would update the blog just to share my words with all my failthful readers. Take care :) Love SkeeT.
A big shout out to the wonderful Boston Globe :) Best newspaper in the world. Yup :) And also, hello to perfect stranger who signed the guestbook. I thank you for strolling in :)
The other day I got out the dusty copy of Sim City 3000. It's kept me occupied. You see, I now have to wait up to three weeks for the new computer, and so after deleting all my stuff, I'm left kinda bored. That game really is a heap of fun, though. And as you can tell, I don't really have all that much to say today, but I thought I would update the blog just to share my words with all my failthful readers. Take care :) Love SkeeT.
Monday, March 19, 2001
Sunday, March 18, 2001
i walked down the path leading to somewhere i never knew existed but i wasnt allowed in because i didnt meet the criteria to live and be loved and so all my nights are spent alone, with no hope as i slowly gaze out the window at what i could have but could never embrace. and so the weary clock turns and i watch the hours of my life pass and wonder why i stay here gazing at that clock
Friday, March 16, 2001
I guess you could say I've fallen into a hopeless pit of despair. Ugh. Let me just try and clarify exactly how I feel. Have you ever felt like you are some sort of backup friend? When everyone needs you, and you are there, it's pretty good. They value you, respect you, like you. But when they don't need you, when they have other people to chat and chill with, it's "ta ta, skeet".
Okay, not everyone is like this to me. There are a select good few who treat me good. But the rest - you make me so sick. It's not that I don't like being there for you. I'd just be happy if I'm not the backup, but someone you want to spend time with no matter if the cooler people you know are around or not.
I've been thinking about this recently. I've had plenty time to think about how fucked up my life is at the moment. The highlight of the week is my new comp. Nothing else exciting. Everyone else is having a great time, but I'm just living a pathetic existance. The people I ask to come and chill with me, they make up excuses - "oh, no time... " or "ahhh I can't be bothered". Screw you. Hope while you are lying there not bothered to spend time with your friend you haven't saw in 4 months, you are eaten up by a giant cockroach. Grr.
Why are some people like this. I'd probably be more happy if they just told me the truth - "hey man.. I think you are a giant pain in the ass, get out of my lovely life, you are making it polluted with your weird self". I'd be hurt but I could spend the time I usually use to dwell it more productively.
In case you're not familiar with my current life - I don't start college until September, and in the meantime I have nothing on, not even a job, so human contact is getting even more limited. In addition I live in one of the most boring, icky towns where the only people who would talk to you are... oh I dunno. Can't be bothered to finish that thought.
One good thing, however is not being in love, or even interested in a girlfriend. Too much stress. Couldn't be bothered with it all. I'll cheer up though. Once I get out doing something. I kinda wish I was in Seattle or Atlanta.... at least there would be plenty to do, and a shitload of awesome people to meet.
I don't really think I'm that difficult a person. Although I have come to the conclusion that I do have strange moods. I'm either so depressed or insanely happy. And when I'm happy I act like I'm some sort of weirdo escapee. Maybe I should develop some sort of in between mood. Actually, I can do that. I just don't use that mood much. I never feel normal... just sad or happy.
I actually should look on the bright side. When I think of it, nothing is really bad at all in my life. I just need to get burning up the social scene once more. That will make me superhappy. In fact I'm cheering up as I write it. I've gotten rid of all my negative thoughts, so now I'm free. Woo. :) Hehe. Yeah. I'd say I've cheered up now. Ain't that good. Love SkeeT. (I must add, noone emailed me or signed my guestbook after i asked. *sigh*)
"Take this my arms... take this my eyes... take this my mouth...." - dmb (i probablly messed up in the writing down, listening now ;)
Okay, not everyone is like this to me. There are a select good few who treat me good. But the rest - you make me so sick. It's not that I don't like being there for you. I'd just be happy if I'm not the backup, but someone you want to spend time with no matter if the cooler people you know are around or not.
I've been thinking about this recently. I've had plenty time to think about how fucked up my life is at the moment. The highlight of the week is my new comp. Nothing else exciting. Everyone else is having a great time, but I'm just living a pathetic existance. The people I ask to come and chill with me, they make up excuses - "oh, no time... " or "ahhh I can't be bothered". Screw you. Hope while you are lying there not bothered to spend time with your friend you haven't saw in 4 months, you are eaten up by a giant cockroach. Grr.
Why are some people like this. I'd probably be more happy if they just told me the truth - "hey man.. I think you are a giant pain in the ass, get out of my lovely life, you are making it polluted with your weird self". I'd be hurt but I could spend the time I usually use to dwell it more productively.
In case you're not familiar with my current life - I don't start college until September, and in the meantime I have nothing on, not even a job, so human contact is getting even more limited. In addition I live in one of the most boring, icky towns where the only people who would talk to you are... oh I dunno. Can't be bothered to finish that thought.
One good thing, however is not being in love, or even interested in a girlfriend. Too much stress. Couldn't be bothered with it all. I'll cheer up though. Once I get out doing something. I kinda wish I was in Seattle or Atlanta.... at least there would be plenty to do, and a shitload of awesome people to meet.
I don't really think I'm that difficult a person. Although I have come to the conclusion that I do have strange moods. I'm either so depressed or insanely happy. And when I'm happy I act like I'm some sort of weirdo escapee. Maybe I should develop some sort of in between mood. Actually, I can do that. I just don't use that mood much. I never feel normal... just sad or happy.
I actually should look on the bright side. When I think of it, nothing is really bad at all in my life. I just need to get burning up the social scene once more. That will make me superhappy. In fact I'm cheering up as I write it. I've gotten rid of all my negative thoughts, so now I'm free. Woo. :) Hehe. Yeah. I'd say I've cheered up now. Ain't that good. Love SkeeT. (I must add, noone emailed me or signed my guestbook after i asked. *sigh*)
"Take this my arms... take this my eyes... take this my mouth...." - dmb (i probablly messed up in the writing down, listening now ;)
Thursday, March 15, 2001
It has finally happened! The papers for my computer came through! Which means once I sign and send and they recieve it will be OH MY GOODNESS!!! delivered! I can't really describe how happy I am now. Everything I have planned will soon come true. And when I get my web cam, look out for some frequent new pictures of your host, my good self! Wooo ;) Hehe,. actually - is that a good thing? Do you REALLY want your screen to crack?!?! :Þ
I sent my mom an email at work with that tongue. She thought it was amazingly swell. Yup Swell. Ahhhhhh. There's not much else I feel like writing. Normal entries will resume when I have calmed down :) That's not to say I won't write, just expect it to be amazingly excited crap! AHhahahah.
So what am I away to do now? Well, I'm away to the post box, then away to have noodles in black bean sauce. Yum. In fact, double yum. Then I shall put on some music, perhaps one of the finest bands EVER - Soul Coughing, and sing, dance, jump and then go outside and run about with my tongue hanging out screaming "WOOOO WOOOO WOOOOO WOOOO"... after my night in the jail, I'll probably have calmed down! hehe. Ooooh what a silly dude I am today. You are probably thinking I am insane. Nah. Just excited. I get too excited. Come on - 1ghz pc with a 19inch monitor. Currently I only have a small 15 incher. Ahhhhhh. Okay. I will spare you any more of this. I'm not really insane! Trust me. Love ya! Oh, and Allan - ya gotta update yo blog, dude! It's been the same entry for about a week. :) Love SkeeT. (Why not email me? or sign my guestbook? Or write me a poem ;) or dedicate a song to me... hehe nah joke... but you can email me or sign! Come on!!!!)
"Your Cadillac breathes, four hundred horses, over blue lines, you are going to Reseda, to make love, to a model, from Ohio, whose real name, you don't know." - Soul Coughing
"Obsess yourself with causality. The information you hear is a loophole, technicality. Behind every object is a mathematic; an obscure substance infused with a kinetic force, energy, an obscure conscience shoots a gun at the feet the world dances." - Soul Coughing
I sent my mom an email at work with that tongue. She thought it was amazingly swell. Yup Swell. Ahhhhhh. There's not much else I feel like writing. Normal entries will resume when I have calmed down :) That's not to say I won't write, just expect it to be amazingly excited crap! AHhahahah.
So what am I away to do now? Well, I'm away to the post box, then away to have noodles in black bean sauce. Yum. In fact, double yum. Then I shall put on some music, perhaps one of the finest bands EVER - Soul Coughing, and sing, dance, jump and then go outside and run about with my tongue hanging out screaming "WOOOO WOOOO WOOOOO WOOOO"... after my night in the jail, I'll probably have calmed down! hehe. Ooooh what a silly dude I am today. You are probably thinking I am insane. Nah. Just excited. I get too excited. Come on - 1ghz pc with a 19inch monitor. Currently I only have a small 15 incher. Ahhhhhh. Okay. I will spare you any more of this. I'm not really insane! Trust me. Love ya! Oh, and Allan - ya gotta update yo blog, dude! It's been the same entry for about a week. :) Love SkeeT. (Why not email me? or sign my guestbook? Or write me a poem ;) or dedicate a song to me... hehe nah joke... but you can email me or sign! Come on!!!!)
"Your Cadillac breathes, four hundred horses, over blue lines, you are going to Reseda, to make love, to a model, from Ohio, whose real name, you don't know." - Soul Coughing
"Obsess yourself with causality. The information you hear is a loophole, technicality. Behind every object is a mathematic; an obscure substance infused with a kinetic force, energy, an obscure conscience shoots a gun at the feet the world dances." - Soul Coughing
Wednesday, March 14, 2001
I'm so bored. So I thought I'd write some more. Not really sure what about, though. Right now there's noone to talk to (all busy) so I'm left just doing nothing. I've exhausted everything I can do today. You know how it is, when you are waiting for something, and get restless. I tell you, if these papers don't come through tomorrow to confirm my PC order, I am going to call them and they'll be lucky if they have use of their ear by the end of it. Grrrrrrr. You can tell I'm a little frustrated/annoyed/excited/blah/grr etc.
Just finished watching a few Frasiers. I am a complete fanatic - have over 20 tapes of the show. But you have got to love it! In almost everyway, it is perfect. It deals with raw emotion, doesn't rely on constant gags to keep the show interesting, and almost all the time, the writing is fresh, and very original. Add in the cast of the most amazing actors ever to live, and you get the wonder that is Frasier. Might watch some more in bed tonight to pass the time. Time always slows down so much when I wait. Love SkeeT.
Just finished watching a few Frasiers. I am a complete fanatic - have over 20 tapes of the show. But you have got to love it! In almost everyway, it is perfect. It deals with raw emotion, doesn't rely on constant gags to keep the show interesting, and almost all the time, the writing is fresh, and very original. Add in the cast of the most amazing actors ever to live, and you get the wonder that is Frasier. Might watch some more in bed tonight to pass the time. Time always slows down so much when I wait. Love SkeeT.
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